© 1998,99,00 by Samuel M. Post
ACT 1
SCENE 1
(Autumn. The 90s. The middle class home of DINAH, a social worker, and her nine year old son, MATT.
The two of them share a pizza. MATT pulls the pieces of pepperoni off and eats them first. Then he pulls cheese off the top and eats that, leaving the dough and crust on his plate.)
DINAH
What are you doing?
MATT
Eating pizza.
DINAH
Just the cheese?
MATT
And pepperoni. Thats how I always eat it.
DINAH
Not even a bite of dough?
MATT
I dont like it.
DINAH
(angry)
Well, if you dont start eating the dough and the crust, Ill stop buying the pizza. You throw away as much food as you eat.
MATT
I dont care.
DINAH
There are children in North Korea who are starving.
MATT
I still dont care.
DINAH
There are people right here within two blocks of here classmates of yours who would love a pizza.
MATT
So what?
DINAH
There are people who cant afford pizza.
MATT
Who cares?
DINAH
There are families who wouldnt dream of wasting a piece of pizza.
MATT
Big deal.
DINAH
Families...
(pause)
...with brothers and sisters and the kids would fight over the last piece.
MATT
Well, I dont have any brothers or sisters. I always get the last piece.
DINAH
There are Russians who would give anything...
MATT
I dont care about them either!
DINAH
Matt...I want you to think a little deeper.
MATT
Huh?
DINAH
You should appreciate the abundance of whole pizza. Its your obligation. Dont squander it. Appreciate our prosperity. Not everybody is lucky enough to be an only child.
MATT
Youre mostly talking to yourself. Whatever it is youre trying to tell me...just get it over with and say it.
DINAH
You have too much.
MATT
We dont have much.
DINAH
We have plenty.
MATT
I dont think so. I dont think we have much at all. Daddy always went to the grocery store and got extra cheese. Then he had the oven already hot when he brought it in and he sprinkled the extra cheese all over the top and put in the pizza so it came out better. Sometimes he got extra mushrooms. It was better! Much better!
DINAH
He put extra cheese on it one time. One, single time.
MATT
He did it lots of times. Two hundred, at least.
DINAH
No, he didnt. But youve thought about it so much youve replayed having pizza with your Daddy so many times in your memory that youve multiplied the experience and now it seems like two hundred times.
MATT
I like extra cheese.
DINAH
I could have just brought home a hunk of cheese and a pack of pepperoni, you know. Why pay for something youre not going to eat?
MATT
You tried that. It didnt taste the same. Just get extra cheese. Thats simple enough. Extra cheese. Then microwave it in a coffee mug until it completely melts and pour it all over the top of the pizza. Daddy did that, too and it works.
DINAH
Im not Daddy.
MATT
I know.
(Beat. DINAH becomes uneasy as she anticipates MATTS inevitable question.)
Why did God kill Daddy?
DINAH
(snippy)
God did not kill Daddy. He was in an accident.
MATT
God made the accident.
DINAH
No. Thats not it.
MATT
Why didnt God stop the accident?
DINAH
Quit saying that!
MATT
Then answer me!
DINAH
I told you. That accident was a random physical event in time and space.
MATT
A what?
DINAH
A neutral, normal occurrence in objective history.
MATT
Huh?
DINAH
It happened. Its over. Nothing can be done about it. But you and I are still alive. Thats what concerns me. You. Me. People. Theres no such thing as God.
MATT
You dont think so?
DINAH
No. And neither do you.
MATT
Because were atheists, right?
DINAH
Yes we are.
MATT
Our guidance counselor told me that if I dont believe in God, then Daddy will be in hell.
DINAH
Talking with a guidance counselor is good. I, myself, counsel people all the time. I believe in counselling. But she shouldnt discuss religion with you. Its unethical.
MATT
She is not.
DINAH
You dont know what it means to be unethical.
MATT
I just dont think the guidance counselor is one.
DINAH
Its not right. Its wrong, according to...
MATT
God?
DINAH
Ethics! Shes not supposed to comfort you that way, with unrealistic notions of God. Not in that setting.
MATT
Sitting?
DINAH
Setting!
MATT
She lets me stand up.
DINAH
Never mind. That guidance counselor of yours surely shouldnt tell you that your beliefs could land your daddy in hell. Thats too much responsibility for a child. She is a government employee.
MATT
She is not. Shes a guidance counselor.
DINAH
Whats her name, anyway?
MATT
Mrs. Rankum.
DINAH
Mrs. Rankum ought to be disciplined for that.
MATT
Im the one who brought it up. I want Daddy to be in heaven.
DINAH
Theres no such thing as heaven. Its like the Land of Oz. Mother Goose.
MATT
We believe that?
DINAH
We dont believe in heaven, but we do believe in responsibility. Thus, if there were a heaven, your Daddy would have had to get himself there; your belief wouldnt help him.
MATT
Then where is Daddy?
DINAH
Hes dead.
MATT
But hes got to be somewhere.
DINAH
Not really. Well, technically, the ashes from his body are in the urn.
(She pulls the urn down from a shelf and holds it.)
MATT
Wheres his soul? My guidance counselor said his soul is still alive. Wheres it?
DINAH
We dont believe in the existence of the soul.
MATT
I dont even know what a soul is.
DINAH
A part of every person that keeps on living. But we dont believe in it.
MATT
I believe in it.
DINAH
No you dont.
MATT
The hell I dont.
DINAH
Dont talk that way.
MATT
You do it.
DINAH
No I dont.
MATT
There is a soul.
DINAH
Ah! Show me one. Show me one soul.
MATT
I cant. I dont know anything about God. You never took me to Sunday school. You wont even let me watch the preachers on TV.
DINAH
Theyre lunatics!
MATT
I dont know the stuff the other kids know.
DINAH
And thats the way it should be.
MATT
God says there is a soul, Mamma! And Daddy had one, and its in heaven now.
DINAH
When did God tell you that?
MATT
God didnt tell me.
DINAH
Whod he tell?
MATT
Other people.
DINAH
Has he ever said anything to you?
MATT
No.
DINAH
Then how do you know those other people didnt make it up?
MATT
Why would somebody make up God?
DINAH
So they can then make up a place for him to live heaven. So they have something to say to little boys when their daddies are killed in automobile accidents. So those little boys can think their daddies have souls that live on. So people can try to make those little boys feel better.
(Matt stands up on the kitchen table.)
Whatre you doing?
MATT
Im going to step on the pizza.
DINAH
No youre not.
MATT
Yes I am.
DINAH
That pizza costs money. That represents my labor.
MATT
Im stepping in it.
DINAH
Get down. Right now.
(Matt lifts his foot.)
A persons labor represents a persons...essence! If you step on that pizza, youre stepping on me. Dont you dare!
(He looks at her, his foot hovering above the pie.)
I mean it. Right now.
(beat)
Dont let that foot get any closer.
(He lowers his foot.)
Young man, youre going to pay dearly for this.
(Beat.)
This is your last chance. Either get down off that table or Ill get you down.
(He steps in it. She pulls him off and pops him. He cries.)
SCENE 2
(Another day. Alone, MATT makes a sandwich. DINAH enters. She sees the sandwich and reacts.)
DINAH
What is that?
MATT
A sandwich.
DINAH
Youre making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich? Now? At five thirty? Right when I get home and you know Im going to fix dinner?
MATT
Im hungry. Whats for dinner?
DINAH
Meatloaf. The way you like it best. Not spicy.
MATT
French fries or mash potatoes?
DINAH
Mash potatoes.
MATT
Ill eat that too. Make it.
DINAH
What you need is some knowledge of the world. You need to know that there are people in this world who dont have everything they want. People who would love to have the things you have.
MATT
Nobody would want what I have. Just make the meatloaf.
DINAH
Youre wrong! You dont appreciate what you have.
MATT
I sure dont.
DINAH
How could a person as positive as I am, a person who believes in doing good things for people, a person in a helping profession a natural born giver, which is what I am raise a child as negative as you are?
(MATT shakes his head and grunts.)
MATT
Uuuuuu.
(DINAH moves closer and speaks louder. MATT turns away slightly, but he listens. He has no choice.)
DINAH
You remember that last time I spent the night down at the homeless shelter?
MATT
Yeah.
DINAH
I met this man down there Zack Davis. Hes got a college degree. Hes got a job. But his house burned down and his family left him. Hes got nothing but the clothes on his back.
MATT
Why doesnt he get another house?
DINAH
He doesnt have the money for one. I gave him some of your Daddys clothes to help him out.
(MATT runs to the doorway of his fathers room. He stops at the door and looks inside.)
MATT
I want Daddys clothes.
DINAH
Theyre too big for you.
MATT
I still want them.
DINAH
Styles change. Youll never wear them.
MATT
But theyre Daddys. You cant give them away. How did you get them out of his room? You said you werent going in there.
(furious)
Did you go in there?
DINAH
No. I didnt go in.
MATT
Then how did you get his clothes out? You went in there!
DINAH
Your Aunt Nan went in and brought them out.
MATT
Are we going to stay out of his room forever?
DINAH
For awhile.
MATT
Momma, please. Leave Daddys stuff.
DINAH
I wont take out anymore. Your Daddy would have wanted me to help a man like Zack, a man who doesnt have the things your Daddy had a family and a home.
(MATT leans into his fathers room, without stepping into it, and then turns back to his mother.)
MATT
It feels like Daddys still here, a little. As long as we dont move his stuff around.
(She touches him: perhaps a hand on his shoulder, or a hug.)
DINAH
From now on, Ill leave his stuff alone.
MATT
I will too.
DINAH
You know, Matt. I do things that will keep your father here, in memory. Like today, I spoke to a high school class about safe driving.
MATT
That doesnt help me remember him.
DINAH
I make contributions to humanistic charities in your fathers memory. I try to keep your daddy alive.
MATT
Well, he isnt.
DINAH
I talk about what a good person he was. I let the good works he did in his life inspire me to do good work in mine.
MATT
Id rather have his clothes, Mamma. Please. Dont give his clothes all away. I want to get in them one day and wear them myself. Itll be like getting in his skin. You say Daddys alive; well, then he wants me to do that.
DINAH
I wont give away the clothes.
SCENE 3
(Another day. MATT watches TV. DINAH, moody, enters.)
DINAH
You watch way too much TV. Is there anything you do besides go to school and watch TV?
MATT
No.
(She lectures, but he doesnt listen.)
DINAH
Look at you. Youre listless. Youre pathetic. You never get exercise. You dont run...sweat...breath hard. Why arent you outside playing ball with the other boys?
MATT
Id rather watch TV. Nobody likes to play ball.
DINAH
There are kids your age in the driveway across the street! Playing basketball!
(She looks out the window.)
I can see them from here.
MATT
Oh, them. Theyre a bunch of freaks.
DINAH
Matt! No name calling. You know how I feel about that.
MATT
Yeah.
DINAH
Generalizations like that cut you off from the world. They make life cold.
MATT
Youre kind of a freak too.
(She picks up the plate that is beside him and inspects it.)
DINAH
What were you eating?
MATT
Peanut butter sandwich.
DINAH
Eating and watching TV?
MATT
Yep.
DINAH
Do you think thats healthy?
MATT
I dont care.
DINAH
Im disgusted with you!
MATT
I dont care about that either.
(She flicks off the TV.)
DINAH
Go outside!
MATT
And do what?
DINAH
Play!
MATT
Play what?
DINAH
Anything.
MATT
Theres nothing to play out there.
DINAH
You can play ball. Youve got a football. Youve got a baseball. Youve even got a tennis racket.
MATT
Those arent fun. If we had a computer Id play that.
DINAH
Thats why we dont have a computer. I want you outside. Go climb a tree!
MATT
Last time I climbed a tree, you told me to get off it.
DINAH
That tree is too small for you. Youll break the limbs.
MATT
Thats the only tree weve got thats good for climbing.
DINAH
If thats the only thing you want to do outside, is climb that one tree that youre going to break then go ahead and climb it.
MATT
I dont want to.
DINAH
Listen. Zack Davis is coming over here.
MATT
Who is he?
DINAH
The guy from the homeless shelter. I told you about him. The clothes remember?
MATT
So hell be wearing Daddys clothes?
DINAH
He could be. Theyre his clothes now. He doesnt have any others.
MATT
I dont want him to come here. Are you gonna marry him?
DINAH
No! Is that what youre afraid of?
MATT
Yeah, a little. That and other things.
DINAH
Hes coming here for dinner.
MATT
Whatre we having?
DINAH
Chicken.
MATT
Fried?
DINAH
No.
MATT
Why not!
DINAH
Because of the fat.
MATT
Who cares?
DINAH
I do.
MATT
It tastes better.
DINAH
I will broil that chicken.
MATT
Please dont broil it!
DINAH
If you complain again, Ill boil it.
MATT
I might not eat it.
DINAH
Thats fine.
MATT
Broiled chicken and Zack Davis. Shit.
DINAH
Young man, dont you talk that way.
MATT
Okay. Broiled chicken and Zack Davis. Shoot.
DINAH
Zack Davis is a man, Matt, whos had some bad luck and needs some help.
MATT
He took Daddys clothes. I dont want to help him.
DINAH
By inviting him here, we get to do a good deed.
MATT
I dont want to do a good deed.
DINAH
You need to do a few.
MATT
I dont feel like it.
DINAH
Whenever you feel bad, the best way to feel better is to give something to someone else.
MATT
I dont feel like that either.
DINAH
You and I have not been feeling so good, so I thought it might be good for both of us to give something.
MATT
Cant we give him something without him coming over here to get it?
DINAH
Thats the point. Coming here is our gift. Were giving of ourselves. Our love. Our home. He doesnt have one of his own.
MATT
I wish hed get one.
JAMIE
So do I. I want to help him with that.
MATT
Whats he going to do when hes here?
DINAH
Maybe watch TV. Maybe you two can throw football or something. And well give him a great big meal. Hes just a normal person like anybody else. Only difference is, he doesnt have a home.
MATT
I hate him.
DINAH
Thats no way to be!
MATT
But I do.
DINAH
You dont know him at all.
MATT
Why does he want to come here and eat? Just cause hes got no home? Cant he go somewhere else?
DINAH
Matt, youre going to treat him nice. Youre going to treat him especially nice. Zack Davis is handicapped.
MATT
Huh? Zack Davis is handicapped?
DINAH
Yes, so youre going to be nice to him.
MATT
Zack Davis is handicapped, eh? I didnt know that. What kind of handicap?
DINAH
He cant talk.
MATT
Why not?
DINAH
His jaw wont move.
MATT
Why wont it move?
DINAH
I dont know.
MATT
Ill ask him.
DINAH
You will do no such thing.
MATT
If Im supposed to be his friend, and play ball with him, and let him come here for dinner then I want to know why his jaw wont move.
DINAH
You will show respect.
MATT
Yeah.
(beat)
Can he hear?
DINAH
Yes. He can hear.
MATT
So I can talk to him.
DINAH
Oh, he has excellent listening skills.
MATT
He just cant talk back to me.
DINAH
Right.
MATT
So I can say anything I want to Zack Davis, and he cant ever answer.
DINAH
Yeah.
(Pause. MATT relaxes, and he might even smile.)
MATT
I might like Zack Davis after all.
SCENE 4
(DINAH, MATT, and ZACK sit around the dining room table, eating.)
DINAH
Zack, Ive done a lot of thinking about your jaw. It hasnt been that way for too terribly long, has it?
(ZACK shakes his head.)
Less than five years?
(ZACK nods.)
Less than three years?
(He nods again.)
Less than two years?
(He shakes his head.)
Between two and three years.
(He nods.)
Two and a half long years. Im sure that affected your marriage not being able to talk at all.
(ZACK nods.)
Thats the reason it ended. Isnt it?
(ZACK nods.)
Was your marriage stressed after you lost your house in the fire?
(He nods.)
You couldnt scream "fire!" like you needed to. And you couldnt talk to 911.
(He nods in agreement.)
Its tragic.
MATT
Whatd you do just call 911 and beat the phone against a table or something?
(ZACK pantomimes; he holds an imaginary telephone and frantically snaps his fingers into the receiver.)
DINAH
And when all of it is said and done...after the insurance settlement, the broken family, the divorce, the nights spent in a homeless shelter...have you ever seen a jaw specialist?
(ZACK responds by sadly shaking his head.)
Have you ever even seen a good doctor about steps you might take to get your speech back?
(He shakes his head.)
Our health care system is so convoluted.
(He nods.)
Just like our educational system, and our government. Most companies. Any system.
(He nods.)
Its the size of our bureaucracy and the tone it creates. Are you a democrat or a republican?
(ZACKs gesture indicates that he is neither.)
I took the liberty of discussing your situation with a few doctors, and Ive made you an appointment with one of the top jaw specialists on the East Coast. An expert.
MATT
A jaw expert?
DINAH
A physician. A doctor of the jaw.
MATT
A jaw doctor? All he cares about are jaws?
DINAH
Hes a she, and thats it. She just sees jaws.
MATT
So shes a doctor, but if you hurt your foot and show it to her, she wouldnt even look at it.
DINAH
She might. But shed send you to a different doctor. She doesnt really look at feet. If its not a jaw, shes not that interested.
MATT
Is her name Dr. Jaw?
DINAH
Her name is Dr. Joanna Sloan.
(Beat. To ZACK)
Zack. Were going to help you. Were going to help you talk again. No matter how long it takes. No matter what surgery is required. No matter how painful it is, were going to be patient and understanding, and were going to be here for you listening. Were going to see you become whole again.
(ZACK appears to be puzzled.)
Zack?
(still puzzled)
Zack, do you understand what Im saying to you?
(ZACK nods and grins.)
SCENE 5
(In the doctors office, DR. SLOAN has one hand on each of ZACKS jawbones, and shes looking down his throat.)
SLOAN
Its more than the jaw, really. You could talk a little if it were just the jaw. Your tongue acts like its frozen. Can you eat?
(ZACK nods.)
Can you make sounds? I know you cant talk, but you must be able to make some sort of sound.
(ZACK makes a sound like a sick terrier.)
Usually I can tell pretty quickly if I need to restrict the motion of the joint, replace the joint, fuse the joint, inject something into the joint, remove the joint, or break and set the joint but in this case, nothing really jumps out at me. It looks to me like you could talk.
DINAH
He cant say a word, can you Zack?
SLOAN
You know, Dinah, jaws are undervalued in our society. No one gives them a thought unless they dont work.
DINAH
Typical.
SLOAN
We use them all the time. And theyre more interesting than people think. Zack here has a fascinating jaw, and its one Id like to see a lot more of.
DINAH
Hes open to experimental treatments.
SLOAN
I hope you dont take this the wrong way. I understand how this could sound a bit like exploitation, given his tragic loss of speech but I find Zacks jaw a challenge. I would like to continue to see Zack until he talks again. Of course, there is one thing I think we ought to rule out.
DINAH
Whats that?
SLOAN
The Lord.
DINAH
Huh?
SLOAN
Dinah, my father was a truck driver. He had no use for the Lord and, to be honest, he was not a nice man. I used to be afraid of him. Then, one day, he found himself in the middle of a tent revival.
DINAH
What does this have to do with Zacks jaw?
SLOAN
Let me tell you. I dont know how my father got to that revival probably wandering around drunk and got lost. But he heard things at that meeting that opened up his heart, made him stop drinking, and changed his capacity to provide for his family and love other human beings. I wouldnt be here right now as a doctor of the jaw if my father had not gone to that revival meeting. And you wouldnt be here. One thing connects to another. I think Zack was meant to be here with me today. I think Zack should go to a meeting and just see. Just see, if there might be a cure in it for him. After all, hes not in pain. He just needs...capacity.
DINAH
Ive never heard such foolishness from a doctor. Have you forgotten who you are?
SLOAN
Of course I havent.
DINAH
Youre supposed to be a scientist!
SLOAN
Of course. But that doesnt give me the power to dethrone the Almighty despite the questionable activities of some of my colleagues.
DINAH
Youre a religious fanatic cloaked as a doctor.
SLOAN
Im a doctor who believes patients share the responsibility.
DINAH
Lets go, Zack. There are other jaw specialists.
SCENE 6
(ZACK and MATT play catch with a football.)
ZACK
Kid, your mother is a nice lady, but she can be a real pain in the ass sometimes you know that?
MATT
Is that why you tell her you cant talk?
X
ZACK
Nah. I tell everybody that.
MATT
I could tell people you can talk.
ZACK
You could, but youd be better off if you didnt.
MATT
What would you do to me, Zack?
ZACK
First of all, nobody will believe you. Second, I might kill you.
MATT
Why do you want people to think you cant talk?
ZACK
It makes life easier. I used to be a teacher.
MATT
A talking teacher?
ZACK
Sure. But my voice got so tired every day. One day I lost it. I opened my mouth and nothing came out. That was the day I made my glorious discovery. Since that day, my life has held...well a lot less stress. So, Ive pretended, ever since, that my voice never came back.
MATT
You couldnt be a teacher if you couldnt talk.
ZACK
Ah, that was the point. But I also had this little jewel called tenure.
MATT
Huh?
ZACK
Job security.
MATT
What kind of jewel is that? Do you wear it around your neck?
ZACK
It means I had choices: I could not work at all and collect disability, or I could take a job as an administrator and get a raise. Naturally, I took the administrative position.
MATT
They dont have to talk?
ZACK
Nah. I ran the Xerox in the school systems auxiliary office center. That machine was a monster. Not just anybody has the intelligence to learn how to use it. I couldnt talk, but I was the expert when it came to running that damn copy machine.
MATT
You had a job making copies?
ZACK
Making copies. Kid, sometimes I turned out over ten thousand copies a day. Of course, the machine did all the work. I just read magazines and refilled the paper.
MATT
With a job like that, you shouldnt have to live in a homeless shelter.
ZACK
Its my wifes fault. She caught me talking in my sleep! I dont even know what I said! But since I had let the house burn down rather than talk, that pissed her off like you would not believe.
MATT
I say stuff all the time that pisses off my mom.
ZACK
Youre moms not right in the head.
MATT
I know.
ZACK
But my wife that woman was poison she kicked me out of that apartment we had moved into. Then she called my boss. My own wife ratted me out.
MATT
Because of what you said in your sleep?
ZACK
Because I could talk!
MATT
Thats not fair.
ZACK
Well, you know thats how I had gotten the administrative position. So when they found out I could talk they fired me quick after that. They wanted to fire me anyway because, well, its inconvenient having a guy around who cant talk. Sad but true: theres a bit of prejudice against non-talking people. I like being mute, but it makes people feel antsy. So here I am.
MATT
Then they know you can talk.
ZACK
Kid, nobody can prove anything. Nobody heard me talk. Ill deny it from here on out. By my way of thinking, if I have a choice between humiliation with pity, and humiliation with embarrassment, Ill take the humiliation and the pity. You can do something with pity. Embarrassment is a pain in the ass.
MATT
I dont understand you, but I know youre a liar.
ZACK
It doesnt matter. Who isnt? Most people think Im telling the truth. Or rather, they think Im not lying, because Im not saying anything. Try it. Youll find out that you can change the truth pretty easily. The truth of the situation is this: you choose the truth.
MATT
It would be hard to lie about not being able to talk.
ZACK
Youd be surprised. Accuse a mute guy of lying and most people laugh at you. You know I talk. Tell somebody.
MATT
Who?
ZACK
Anybody. Hell think youre a liar. My ex-wife knows. I stay away from her and dont ask her for anything. Its her word against mine, and hers sounds a lot sillier. So sometimes I can talk. Sometimes I cant. Whos to say both arent true? The boss I got now isnt sure but he doesnt really care.
MATT
I thought you got fired for being able to talk?
ZACK
Got another job.
MATT
Doing what?
ZACK
Rackin balls down at the pool hall. No talking; just rackin. What difference does it make, kid? Your momma thinks I cant talk; shes giving me clothes and food, and maybe a place to live for free. Maybe I am a liar and a bum, Kid but pity works, as long as youve got the intelligence to keep all of your victims finely tuned.
(They go inside and stand in front of the door to MATTS fathers room.
ZACK goes in and comes out with a sports coat on.)
Hey, Kid, this jacket is all right.
MATT
Thats my daddys jacket!
ZACK
Itll be mine as soon as I ask your momma for it.
MATT
She said shes not giving away anymore of Daddys clothes.
ZACK
Kid, your Daddys dead. He doesnt need a jacket like this where he is.
MATT
Where is he?
ZACK
Where is he?
MATT
Yeah. Is he in heaven?
ZACK
Well, I didnt know him. But if hes like your mamma, hed be in hell. Thats where shes going. And the way shes raising you with all that atheist, communist, humanist, secular, do-gooder shit youll be going there too.
MATT
My Daddy wont go to hell. He was good...good! in lots of ways.
ZACK
Kid, its not like going to jail, where a hundred different things will get you there. Its basically a cut and dried proposition. You just fire one question at a mans heart and either he answers yes or he answers no.
(Beat.)
Did your daddy fear the Lord?
MATT
Yes! Yes! I know he did.
ZACK
Then you better start fearing too. Otherwise say hes with the good Lord and you follow in your mothers footsteps and end up in hell you could never see your daddy again.
(Pause.)
MATT
Tell me what to do. Just tell me what to do, and Ill do it.
ZACK
Well, for one thing, you need to stop concerning yourself with material objects. Like this jacket. Your daddys spirit is with God. This is a piece of cloth. For you to get so worked up about physical things means the devils got you by the balls. Hes got you worshipping him and you dont even know it.
(beat)
Second thing: you dont know how to pray.
MATT
Teach me, Zack. Teach me how to pray. Please.
ZACK
I will, but youre not ready yet.
MATT
How do I get ready?
ZACK
You prepare to pray by carefully observing nature.
MATT
Where is it?
ZACK
Outside! Just go outside and observe it. Take notice. Look at the flowers. Watch how the stems of grass come out of the soil. Listen to the birds and watch how they talk to each other. Just take in some of Gods work. Thats the first step.
MATT
Okay.
ZACK
You dont play outside much, do you?
MATT
Not really.
ZACK
Most boys your age like it outside. Hell, my clothes are dirtier than yours.
MATT
Because you spend more time observing nature?
ZACK
Exactly. Im a keen observer of nature. So go! Get outside. Hey, get some fresh air, too, while youre out there. Take some deep breaths. Youll be prepared to pray in no time.
(MATT exits. ZACK goes into MATTS fathers room. He searches the drawers and pockets a few valuable items.
MATT returns, lies down on the couch, and begins watching TV.
ZACK returns to the living room.)
ZACK
Hey, whatd I tell you about sitting on your ass and watching TV?
MATT
You said to go outside and observe nature.
ZACK
Then get the hell out there and observe it.
MATT
After this show.
ZACK
The hell! Now!
MATT
I watch this every day.
ZACK
Son, didnt we discuss this whole thing?
MATT
Yeah.
ZACK
You need to observe nature, even touch it, in order to prepare your spirit for prayer. Pretty soon, youll feel Gods presence. And since your daddys in heaven with Him youll be able to talk to Him. Itll be just like your daddy is here in this room with you.
MATT
Will I see him?
ZACK
Sure you will.
MATT
Will he be all fuzzy or clear?
ZACK
Depends on how hard you pray. Anyhow, I told your mamma Id get you out of the house. Im here to help you, and I dont want to kick your ass in order to do it, but I will if I have to.
MATT
Howd you tell that to my momma if you pretend to her you cant talk?
ZACK
Your Momma and I communicate just fine.
MATT
Theres nothing to do outside. I just dont see God when I observe nature. Dont some people read the Bible? Couldnt I try that?
ZACK
Theyre a bunch of hypocrites. I tell you what works for me. Look at water. Water is a powerful force.
MATT
Water is boring.
ZACK
No, water if everything. It creates life, absorbs life, inhabits life, destroys it, covers it, rots it, and heals it. If you get real still and stare at it for a long time, youll see God, and you might see your father.
(pause)
You know where any water is?
MATT
Theres a pond down at the bottom of the street. Its small, but its...pure water.
ZACK
Thatll do. Here where we live, we have to make more of an effort to be near to God. Ever notice how people who live near the ocean are more spiritual?
MATT
No.
ZACK
Take my word for it. They are. And its because they see the water every day. They smell it and breathe it. Its like having God rushing through your veins all the time.
MATT
Ill try it.
(MATT begins to exit.)
ZACK
Gimme that remote.
(MATT gives him the remote and exits. ZACK takes MATTS place on the couch.
A moment later, DINAH enters carrying groceries.)
DINAH
Zack, youre still here. Would you like to stay for dinner again?
(He nods.)
Ive got a bottle of wine. Do you drink wine?
(He nods. She glances around.)
Wheres Matt?
(He motions with his thumb, almost like a hitchhiker.)
Outside?
(He nods.)
Wonderful! Fresh air. Maybe he wont be so pale anymore. I knew youd be a good influence on him.
(With his hand, he indicates that everything is a-okay. She brings him a glass of wine.
ZACK slouches in the couch, watching TV, He flips channels with the remote. Enter MATT.)
MATT
Hi Mom.
DINAH
Zacks here.
MATT
I know.
DINAH
Maybe you two would like to play catch while I fix dinner.
MATT
Nah.
DINAH
It would be great for you.
(MATT looks at ZACK. Zack is revolted by the idea, but he grudgingly gets up from the couch. MATT locates a football. The two of them step outside and toss it back and forth.)
MATT
I saw him!
ZACK
(drowsy)
Huh?
MATT
I saw him!
ZACK
Saw who?
MATT
Daddy! In the water.
ZACK
See there you go. I told you, huh?
MATT
He was trying to talk to me, but I couldnt hear him.
ZACK
Hey, stick with me, Kid. Youll be talking with him, playing ball with him. Going to the movies. Did you try jumping in the lake?
MATT
Its too steep, and I cant swim. I dont think I could get out.
ZACK
You cant swim...can your daddy swim?
MATT
Sure.
ZACK
Maybe he can help you.
MATT
I didnt see him that clear.
ZACK
He kind of comes and goes?
MATT
Yeah.
ZACK
Thats normal for a guy in heaven. Im sure hell catch you if you jump in, but make sure you see him clear as a picture when you do it.
SCENE 8
(ZACK, making himself at home, lies on the couch watching TV. He smokes. Enter MATT.)
MATT
Hey, howd you get in here?
ZACK
Your momma gave me my own key.
MATT
Youre not supposed to smoke in here.
ZACK
Its not your house, its your mommas.
MATT
Shes the one who doesnt let people smoke in here.
ZACK
Then dont tell her I smoked in here. And let her tell me not to.
MATT
I think Ive observed enough nature to start praying now.
ZACK
How in the hell can you think that?
MATT
Ive been sitting by the lake everyday, staring at my daddy in the water.
ZACK
Cross-legged?
MATT
Do you have to sit cross legged?
ZACK
Its a good way to sit.
MATT
My daddy never sat cross legged.
ZACK
Not your daddy. You!
MATT
I never sit that way.
ZACK
How do you sit when youre seeing your daddy in the water?
MATT
Usually Im lying there on my stomach.
ZACK
That wont work. There are ways to sit when a person prays. Youre just lying there.
MATT
So how do you sit?
ZACK
You can sit cross-legged. You can kneel in a couple of different ways. You can bow. You can stoop. But you cant just lie on your stomach.
MATT
Well, Im observing nature, anyway. I think Im ready.
ZACK
How can you be ready if you cant even get your body in the right position?
MATT
I saw Daddy.
ZACK
Son, your imagination has run wild. Theres a lot more to nature than looking into water. What about birds? What birds have you seen out there?
MATT
I dont know.
ZACK
Any flowers?
MATT
Didnt look at the flowers.
ZACK
Trees?
MATT
I mostly look at the water.
ZACK
Thats part of it, but not all of it and its the quickest way to get to hell. Thinking youve prepared yourself to commune with a higher being when you havent. I ought to kick your ass.
MATT
Im just trying to do what you told me.
ZACK
Listen. Go out there and find me something from nature and bring it back to me. And I mean it better be the right thing.
MATT
What kind of thing?
ZACK
Have patience. Look around and wait for the object to find you.
MATT
How do I know if its right.
ZACK
You listen to the inner voice of your soul, dumb shit.
MATT
How can an object find me?
ZACK
Thats what I want you to learn. It will, if you let it.
MATT
I dont know how to let it.
ZACK
When it happens, you wont have a question. Take your time, and trust me.
(MATT just looks back at ZACK. His face reflects his bewilderment.)
Son, theres a harmony to life. You dont understand it in the least. Im not sure if its possible for me to teach it to you or for anybody to teach it to anybody else but Im going to do my damnedest to try.
(Exit MATT.)
SCENE 9
(MATT enters, proudly holding a piece of bark.)
ZACK
See, now I told you youd know. Youre developing more intuition now a deeper spiritual sense. Now get me some lemonade.
MATT
We dont have any lemonade.
ZACK
Then make some.
MATT
I dont know how to make it.
ZACK
You just squeeze lemons and add sugar and water.
MATT
I cant do that.
ZACK
Then make me a glass of iced tea.
MATT
I cant make that either.
ZACK
(angry)
What are you? Helpless!
MATT
No.
ZACK
You gotta know how to make something or youd die of thirst.
(Beat.)
Dont tell me a little shit like you drinks water.
(Stunned, MATT is afraid to respond.)
Well, do you? Do you drink water?
(Beat)
Do you?
MATT
No.
ZACK
Then what do you drink, when you get thirsty?
MATT
I can fix a Coke.
ZACK
Okay. I could handle some Coke.
(MATT fixes the Coke and ZACK removes a birdhouse from a paper bag. He proudly displays the birdhouse on the table. He folds the bag and puts it in his pocket. When MATT returns with the Coke, ZACK gives him the birdhouse.)
Here. Youre mommas gonna walk in here in a second. I want you to show her this birdhouse and tell her you made it.
MATT
Did you make it?
ZACK
I bought it. Tell your momma I showed you how and youve spent all your spare time for the past week working on it. Its a surprise, and its for her.
MATT
Thou shalt not lie.
(ZACK puts his hand on ZACKs shoulder.)
ZACK
Thou shalt. Unless thou wants a bruise and a mouthful of thous own blood to choke on.
(Enter DINAH.)
DINAH
Hi.
MATT
Mom, look.
DINAH
Hey, whered you get it?
MATT
Its a birdhouse.
DINAH
I see.
MATT
I made it for you.
DINAH
You made that?
(ZACK smiles proudly.)
MATT
Zack showed me how.
DINAH
(gushing)
Matt, this is nice! Such fine work. For me!
MATT
It wasnt so hard.
DINAH
(to ZACK)
Matts father wasnt a real...crafty...person. Thank you, Zack.
(He nods.)
Do you have time to do some shopping? You need some toiletries, and some clothes of your own.
(He shrugs.)
Tomorrow Im taking you to another doctor.
SCENE 10
(DINAH, ZACK and DR. VOYOMER, a psychiatrist, sit in an office.)
DR. VOYOMER
Does he know how to sign?
(ZACK shakes his head.)
DR. VOYOMER
He doesnt look terribly distressed. Just mute.
DINAH
I intend to nurse him back to voice.
DR. VOYOMER
Would you please wait outside?
DINAH
Dr. Voyomer, Im giving Zack a home.
DR. VOYOMER
Then hes no longer homeless. But hes still voiceless. Outside, please.
DINAH
Doctor, Im a social worker. Zacks voice was taken away from him by a society that throws away individuals. In order for him to get it back, an individual must rise above the general order of that society and commit to making a difference. I will be that individual.
DR. VOYOMER
Good for you. Please go out.
DINAH
Im emotionally and ethically invested in Zacks recovery.
DR. VOYOMER
Me too. Go out.
(DINAH exits.)
So, Mr. Davis or may I call you Zack?
(He nods.)
Zack, have you ever seen a psychiatrist before?
(He shakes his head.)
As you know, Dr. Ecco referred you to me.
(DR. VOYOMER studies the report.)
He ordered a complete physical and conducted a pretty thorough ENT exam. Looks like youre in pretty good health, physically.
Theres always neurology, one floor up. But I think its wise to stop in at psychiatry first.
Of course, I generally gather information from patients based on what they say. You present a unique set of challenges. For one thing, I generally work in conjunction with a number of psychotherapists. I diagnose and do med-checks. The therapist...listens.
Suppose we just start with a few "yes and no" questions.
Do you sleep okay at night?
(He nods.)
Hows your sex drive?
(He nods.)
I trust you like women.
(He nods.)
Meaning, you are a heterosexual.
(He nods.)
Are you in any pain at all?
(He shakes his head.)
No chronic, low-level pain a dullness in the head?
(He shakes his head.)
No intermittent aches, or throbbing?
(He shakes his head.)
Do you ever catch yourself weeping?
(He shakes his head.)
Hear any voices?
(He shakes his head.)
Any ringing in the ears, or strange echoes?
(He shakes his head.)
Do you wash your hands a lot?
(He shakes his head.)
Any headaches?
Do you ever feel euphoric very, very happy?
Ever tried suicide?
Thought about it?
Murder?
Compulsive stealing, or lying?
Can you read and write?
(He nods.)
(Beat.)
I see. Zack, Im going to ask you to come back again and take a few simple multiple choice tests. Wont take long. Would you do that for me?
SCENE 11
(DINAH, MATT, and ZACK at home.)
DINAH
So, make yourself at home, Zack. Youve got a room, some new clothes. Help yourself to whatever food you like. You live here. Youre a part of the family.
(DINAH exits.)
ZACK
Son, you may be praying a lot, and you may have contacted your daddy in heaven but youre not praying enough. Your mommas going to hell.
MATT
She is not!
ZACK
She doesnt believe in God. She puts too much faith in people. Theres no better way to end up in hell than that. As a matter of fact, shes already there.
MATT
She wont go to hell. Shes good.
ZACK
No she isnt.
MATT
She gave you a home.
ZACK
Not for my sake. She did that for herself. She gives a homeless, handicapped man like me a place to live and then she gets to think shes turned into a saint.
MATT
She hasnt turned into anything.
ZACK
It feeds her superiority complex and her fake humanistic atheism makes her think its okay. Thats the worst thing of all about your mother: the way she needs to feel like shes better than everybody else. I tell you, the devil is in control of that woman.
MATT
He is not.
ZACK
He is. But youre too young to understand.
MATT
She doesnt believe in the devil.
ZACK
Makes her that much easier. I will say one thing about her.
MATT
What?
ZACK
Shes cute.
MATT
No shes not.
ZACK
I know your daddy was crazy about her.
MATT
Shut up.
ZACK
She is cute.
MATT
Stop it.
(MATT turns away, hurt, avoiding ZACK. ZACK stands behind the boy and whispers.)
ZACK
Cute, cute, cute.
SCENE 12
(ZACK stands at the doorway. MATT watches.)
DINAH
(to ZACK)
Youre leaving? Now?
(ZACK nods.)
Where are you going?
(He points, vaguely, out the door.)
Zack, youll be back for dinner, wont you?
(He nods again.)
Ill have it ready at six. If youre not back, well wait.
(ZACK nods and exits.)
MATT
Momma, dont let him live here anymore. Please.
DINAH
Your problem is, you think about yourself all the time. Think about somebody else.
MATT
Im thinking about you. And me.
DINAH
Thats why I want him to live here. So that you can see the benefit in thinking about somebody besides yourself.
MATT
I think about you. I do.
DINAH
I want you to go beyond just us. If you dont get outside yourself, youll never be satisfied. Im afraid youre heading in that direction.
MATT
Im not in a direction, Momma. But Zack is a bad direction.
DINAH
Dont be silly.
MATT
Im not silly. I hate him!
DINAH
You dont hate him. You just dont want to share.
MATT
I do share, but Zack tells me to pray at the side of the lake and Ill see Daddy.
DINAH
Stop lying, Matt.
MATT
Im not lying. He could talk if he wanted to.
DINAH
Youre lying, and youre being selfish.
MATT
Im not selfish, either! He could sing if he wanted to. But he wouldnt get to live here for free.
DINAH
Stop it.
MATT
And he wouldnt get free food.
DINAH
See? You are selfish.
MATT
And get people to feel sorry for him.
DINAH
People should feel sorry for him.
MATT
Feel sorry for a liar?
DINAH
Youre the one whos lying.
MATT
Hes the one whos lying, and thats why he doesnt talk. So he can have one big lie instead of lots of little ones.
DINAH
Cruelty is worse. Go to your room.
MATT
I wont go. Ive heard Zack talk.
DINAH
You have not. Go to youre room.
MATT
Not unless you say youll make Zack leave.
DINAH
Go!
MATT
Momma, please dont let him live here. I think he could hurt us.
DINAH
Selfish! How many times do I have to tell you? Go to your room!
MATT
Momma, hes a bad man.
DINAH
He is a handicapped man, and you are a bad, self-centered little boy who has no sympathy for a person who is disabled and wont go to his room when hes told!